me and my big mouth!!!

so i wrote my first 'story' yesterday...i'm not exactly a writer but well..i try.lol

i like to feel like i live a private life..even though most people can practically write a book on me...i guess sometimes i hav a habit of saying things i shouldn't. Like the time i randomly told my friend a mutual friend of ours 'sexcapades'...needless to say i was left begging..he found the stories hilarious and it was so bloody obvious he wouldn't have been able to keep it to himself. I was basically feeling like someone who could dish out dirt on just bout anyone...sad i know. 

well my story this time...well i think he cheated on me. im not gonna go into details bou how i found out but i just know he did. Felt lyk i was sinking when i found out. Its long distance so its kinda expected but still! Talked to my friend bout it and he gave me countless rational explanations 2 my discovery basically he tried 2 calm me down telling me stuff that made me feel better.all this happened hours after i'd called 'baby' just to find out if i'd hear the guilt in his voice but didn't hear  it. he sounded so normal so im thinking to myself;wtf?

oh well...just incase someone feels the need to broadcast bout my perfect relationship...lol

Today

ok so i wake up....late..takes a while for me to brush my teeth...n when i say while im talking bout hours even tho im going about my biz. got a few calls and texts....the most interesting one was from a guy...il call him Haynes...we kinda had something really brief and then i try my best to avoid him just because he was 'loving up' and then weeks later from our little spontaneous 'adventure' my friend calls me up and goes(and i quote)"Haynes jus told me he likes me and that we should hook up and that he doesn't care if i've got a boyfriend"..(who by the way is also his friend)..twisted yea? What a man-whore...just when i was starting to feel bad for pushing him away when he was 'loving up'..he makes a move...on my friend???wtf!thats the problem..when a group of guys make friends with a group of the same girls...they end up 'rotating' themselves but obviously the guys are favoured and we are left looking like sluts!and she didn't know we(haynes and i) had hooked up so to her she was just updating me on her boy status.
anyways back to today's happenings. i text him after a long silence saying i wasn't happy bout what i saw on my friend's phone,(i lied that i went through her messages and saw his very sad attempt to seduce her into sleeping with her..couldn't tell him she told me..that would be snitching..and yes they were text chatting when he was feeding her with bullocks and no i didn't see the messages, im telling the truth about lying.lol)
He replies 3 times.
the first saying 'ok' and i second that with a loud bastard!
the next was, 'i dont understand you'...i reply saying 'me too'
lastly he says something bout meeting her first even though nothing ever happened between them. Twas a really sad excuse so i didn't bother replying.
Oh well...still havn't told her bout me and him...she should be able to put one and one together and get two...the answer.
I never feel used though..i like to feel hardened.probably because of the silly situations ive been in.
Experience is the best teacher...Guess ive learnt a bit...