Danger

I need help urgently...im becoming emotionally dead!!

ive probably been so used to being on my own that no one really matters..well..except for the guy i still consider as my baby(sad abi?) anyways lets call him Dj. we were together for like ages before we took a break...probably had some people distracting me but well..it didn't erase him off my mind and heart(p.s im not this slushy!) anyways after everthing im exhausted!! I know i'l like to have someone i could do midnight call with and also daytime calls o!lol...like Julian said ...''don't assume love o..let him call you at 10pm when its not free..peak period first then you can start''lol..but Dj used to..im emphasisng on used to..call me a lot..whenever..wherever...good times..moving on now
Met a couple of people now..nothing spectacular..i cant stand a lot of 'em now..pervs! The likes of Mr.T, CR,Haynes and introducing to the pack Nerd,Weirdo and Mr. Submissive.
I've said a bit bout a few of them..lemme focus on Weirdo.See me see trouble o! i somehow started talking to this person even when we had never met..facebook na winch!shasha..when i found out he knew my cousin really well i was more friendly. then he found out i was gonna be at the cinema the next day and showed up for the formal intro cuz his office was close by and everything..didnt leave my friends to chill with him tho but clearly the ode had already started falling in love..he sha tagged along following me evrywhere thinking i'd detatch myself from them and chill alone with him..btw it was my friends bday that day..there we were..jerseys and skinny jeans and there he was kacking up in suit with people that were bout 8yrs younger than him..paedophile! He sha left after we refused to enter his ride..he wanted to give us a lift but i wasnt interested..i'd rather tuski i told him..he thought i was joking..well i wasnt!..
Somehow he managed to make me feel bad and i agreed to have lunch with him before he left for ghana for the weekend..next thing i know he's giving me some bullcrap story bout forgeting his suitcase at home..imlike,''ehn..go and get it..il be chilling here''...he doesnt like that..he feels its a bit sketchy and wont want to leave me there cause it might take a bit..so he's like lets go pick it up..then we'll have lunch in lekki...(we were at v.i at that point)..so i get in and find myself almost leaving lagos..'ahn ahn?!!where are we going??...' he says to pick up his suitcase..then his estate is somewhere near alpha beach.. we got take away so i was eating in the car..he insists i come inside..i do..then i meet his cousin who by the way is uber-cute!!lol..lets call him Jyde and that one keeps throwing compliments my way while his cousin Weirdo looks like he's about to bring out a dagger from his pocket to castrate Jyde!So Jyde and i engage in some intelligent conversation then Weirdo make Jyde dissapear then he tries endlessly to turn me on..well i think that was the purpose of all the silly things he was saying and doing. next thing he goes int a room and comes out like he didnt 'know' he was now stark naked..na side view i take see am..i didnt even look fully..in my mind i was already trying to visualize what i'd do with the fork i was holding.He was now "subconciously' mooning me!!!WTF!!!get your hairy ass away! sha i still didnt look!!na side eye o!! when he saw that his efforts were going 'unnoticed' he decided to do something about it. he comes with his hairy ass..and tries to sit on my laps!!i scream!i told him that she shouldnt fucking get close to me..he said ther's nothing there now just come and help me bath ive forgotten how to.(dense idiot).im looking at the floor and really pissed now!..''i repeat..dont fucking get close to me...get the fuck away from me!''..he leaves..comes back dressed..his cousin tries to rescue the situation..he tried small sha..then we get into the car..woulda stormed out when all that was happening but..being in the middle of nowhere my efforts woulda been a bit outta place..i di need his help getting out of that beach.lol.Im silent all through the ride down to my office..all this one happened during lunch break..i work on the mainland so u can imagine the kind waka i did. he asks for a kiss..NO...okay peck..NO...okay just be nice to me gidi babe.i say...''u know you are foward...i dont know you dude..i just agreed to have lunch with you cuz i felt i was rude the other day and you start imagining stupid things tryna lure me to your house so that what will now happen?ill shag you abi? he looks sad...he definitely has a differnet approach to things..im not bothered..i storm out of his car and that was the last of him....3 months and counting. thinking back sha it coulda been worse..what if he was the violent weird type..not just weird and he tried to rape me??hmm..gidi babe has seen things o