Saturday, August 28, 2010
read and find out
So I've decided to love him still...regardless of whatever. A look at me before is my angel of happiness giving me every reason to smile and live life to the fullest. I may not be doing the fullest part but I'm smiling and that's enough for me. For as long as this lasts I shall love him unconditionally."
All that's a thought....and I snap back to reality, think again for a moment...FUCK LOVE.
Monday, November 9, 2009
him
Monday, October 5, 2009
Danger
Met a couple of people now..nothing spectacular..i cant stand a lot of 'em now..pervs! The likes of Mr.T, CR,Haynes and introducing to the pack Nerd,Weirdo and Mr. Submissive.
I've said a bit bout a few of them..lemme focus on Weirdo.See me see trouble o! i somehow started talking to this person even when we had never met..facebook na winch!shasha..when i found out he knew my cousin really well i was more friendly. then he found out i was gonna be at the cinema the next day and showed up for the formal intro cuz his office was close by and everything..didnt leave my friends to chill with him tho but clearly the ode had already started falling in love..he sha tagged along following me evrywhere thinking i'd detatch myself from them and chill alone with him..btw it was my friends bday that day..there we were..jerseys and skinny jeans and there he was kacking up in suit with people that were bout 8yrs younger than him..paedophile! He sha left after we refused to enter his ride..he wanted to give us a lift but i wasnt interested..i'd rather tuski i told him..he thought i was joking..well i wasnt!..
Somehow he managed to make me feel bad and i agreed to have lunch with him before he left for ghana for the weekend..next thing i know he's giving me some bullcrap story bout forgeting his suitcase at home..imlike,''ehn..go and get it..il be chilling here''...he doesnt like that..he feels its a bit sketchy and wont want to leave me there cause it might take a bit..so he's like lets go pick it up..then we'll have lunch in lekki...(we were at v.i at that point)..so i get in and find myself almost leaving lagos..'ahn ahn?!!where are we going??...' he says to pick up his suitcase..then his estate is somewhere near alpha beach.. we got take away so i was eating in the car..he insists i come inside..i do..then i meet his cousin who by the way is uber-cute!!lol..lets call him Jyde and that one keeps throwing compliments my way while his cousin Weirdo looks like he's about to bring out a dagger from his pocket to castrate Jyde!So Jyde and i engage in some intelligent conversation then Weirdo make Jyde dissapear then he tries endlessly to turn me on..well i think that was the purpose of all the silly things he was saying and doing. next thing he goes int a room and comes out like he didnt 'know' he was now stark naked..na side view i take see am..i didnt even look fully..in my mind i was already trying to visualize what i'd do with the fork i was holding.He was now "subconciously' mooning me!!!WTF!!!get your hairy ass away! sha i still didnt look!!na side eye o!! when he saw that his efforts were going 'unnoticed' he decided to do something about it. he comes with his hairy ass..and tries to sit on my laps!!i scream!i told him that she shouldnt fucking get close to me..he said ther's nothing there now just come and help me bath ive forgotten how to.(dense idiot).im looking at the floor and really pissed now!..''i repeat..dont fucking get close to me...get the fuck away from me!''..he leaves..comes back dressed..his cousin tries to rescue the situation..he tried small sha..then we get into the car..woulda stormed out when all that was happening but..being in the middle of nowhere my efforts woulda been a bit outta place..i di need his help getting out of that beach.lol.Im silent all through the ride down to my office..all this one happened during lunch break..i work on the mainland so u can imagine the kind waka i did. he asks for a kiss..NO...okay peck..NO...okay just be nice to me gidi babe.i say...''u know you are foward...i dont know you dude..i just agreed to have lunch with you cuz i felt i was rude the other day and you start imagining stupid things tryna lure me to your house so that what will now happen?ill shag you abi? he looks sad...he definitely has a differnet approach to things..im not bothered..i storm out of his car and that was the last of him....3 months and counting. thinking back sha it coulda been worse..what if he was the violent weird type..not just weird and he tried to rape me??hmm..gidi babe has seen things o
Friday, October 2, 2009
Long night
later mehn
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
me and my big mouth!!!
so i wrote my first 'story' yesterday...i'm not exactly a writer but well..i try.lol
i like to feel like i live a private life..even though most people can practically write a book on me...i guess sometimes i hav a habit of saying things i shouldn't. Like the time i randomly told my friend a mutual friend of ours 'sexcapades'...needless to say i was left begging..he found the stories hilarious and it was so bloody obvious he wouldn't have been able to keep it to himself. I was basically feeling like someone who could dish out dirt on just bout anyone...sad i know.
well my story this time...well i think he cheated on me. im not gonna go into details bou how i found out but i just know he did. Felt lyk i was sinking when i found out. Its long distance so its kinda expected but still! Talked to my friend bout it and he gave me countless rational explanations 2 my discovery basically he tried 2 calm me down telling me stuff that made me feel better.all this happened hours after i'd called 'baby' just to find out if i'd hear the guilt in his voice but didn't hear it. he sounded so normal so im thinking to myself;wtf?
oh well...just incase someone feels the need to broadcast bout my perfect relationship...lol
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Today
anyways back to today's happenings. i text him after a long silence saying i wasn't happy bout what i saw on my friend's phone,(i lied that i went through her messages and saw his very sad attempt to seduce her into sleeping with her..couldn't tell him she told me..that would be snitching..and yes they were text chatting when he was feeding her with bullocks and no i didn't see the messages, im telling the truth about lying.lol)
He replies 3 times.
the first saying 'ok' and i second that with a loud bastard!
the next was, 'i dont understand you'...i reply saying 'me too'
lastly he says something bout meeting her first even though nothing ever happened between them. Twas a really sad excuse so i didn't bother replying.
Oh well...still havn't told her bout me and him...she should be able to put one and one together and get two...the answer.
I never feel used though..i like to feel hardened.probably because of the silly situations ive been in.
Experience is the best teacher...Guess ive learnt a bit...